I’ve done it again, I placed someone of a pedestal and I’m not sure it is where they belong. I need to bring him down to my level, so that I can see him from a different perspective. He’s just like me, he’s not perfect. I have to stop being afraid to tell him how I feel…I guess what I am most afraid of is that I do not know what he will say back…does he really like me? How much? I must like him a lot since I have not been able to get him off my mind.

Do I tell him I think he might be everything I have always been looking for…I’m not sure now, because I am starting to question how much I know him. Once he started pushing away I just shut down…I couldn’t figure out what I did wrong. I wasn’t pushing or pulling too much, I was just being me, I mean maybe he doesn’t like me, maybe he wants to find someone else…I guess it is possible that we are not right for each other, I just thought we could be perfect together…I just felt this strong connection with him…I still feel a connection, but it has changed.

I want him to be happy, I want to make him happy, I wish I knew the right thing to do…