I HATE MEN

Sometimes I wonder why I even try. After a while you have been hurt so many times that you find it harder and harder to convince yourself to try again. But then, unless you want to spend the rest of your life miserable and alone, you have to have at least a small amount of hope that somewhere, perhaps, there really is just one good guy left just for you. Well f’ that theory out the window. Time and time again, I am faced with this decision. This past time was no different. I had plenty of arguements of ‘why should i not let myself fall again’ but this last one had a good sales pitch. Truth or not, his speech was exactly what I’ve been looking for inside but thought perhaps my standards were to high… until he kept preaching it over and over, making me think he really meant it. So I finally give in, go tto know him and fall for him. Great! Wonderful! Yeh! Sure, there were problems but nothing worth having comes that easily… so I hear. But last night, 2 days before Valentine’s Day, he shows up at my door, dressed up and smelling good to break up with me.? 2 days before Valentine’s Day! My ’stuff’ I left at his house is in his truck in a grocery bag. Would I rather him lie or drag it on? NO! NO! NO! But please! Someone explain to me how it is I am not supposed to feel bitter, hurt, insulted… I’m tired of hearing how wonderful I am. I’d be a great ‘catch’ for any guy. I’m the perfect female in so many ways. But all of these statements lead to my utter disappointment in the end. And to make it worse, when I think the relationship has potential, I have them meet and get to know my daughter…. What the hell is she going threw as time and time again, she has to loose the man in her life? How do I explain why mom is crying in the middle of the night while she sleeps? Why I can’t give her the family she and I both want. Give me one reason I should keep trying, when the compliments come as they are walking out the door. But let’s be friends…. lol