well, behind every bitch is a man who made her that way. haha. actually, i was pretty normal and not very emotional before i met my husband. then, he swooped me off my feet and made me feel like the most important person in the world. he called me every day and texted me dozens of times in a day. but then he became protective. he made me stop talking to all my friends. then he forced me to use my college money and everything else to pay his bills, but he was still sweet when he wanted to be. then he started punching holes in walls when i cried. keep in mind at the beginning, when i thought all men were assholes and not worth a chance, he made me feel special and hugged me when i cried. so now he just yells at me and breaks things when i cry (like if i find an email from him to a woman advertising sex on a dating ad). but it started simpler than that. i didn’t like him looking at porn. so i cried at that and caught him multiple times. he looked at porn because he gave me HPV, which has been a complete bitch because after i had it removed i got muscle spasms in the wall of my pelvic floor, which made sex hurt worse than appendicitis. trust me, i know, i had appendicitis too. so we stopped having sex so much and i went to 4-5 doctor appointments a week for a whole year because of what he gave me. and in the meantime he looked at porn. when i found that i thought my life would end. but lately i’ve been finding things indicating he’s cheating on me. and i have had an unstable past with people continually making fun of me in school and every “friend” i ever had stabbing me in the back. i still want to butcher myself (you know, cut). because it’s the only thing that comforts me and doesn’t yell at me or break the house down. and he yells at me when i find evidence of him cheating and he tells me he’s sick of it, like i’m the one to blame. but now we have sex (i have a few hundred muscle relaxers, no exaggeration). and we do it a lot. i’m average size–5’4″, 130 pounds. most guys actually say i’m very good looking. he doesn’t. he acts like i’m a hippo. never compliments me. won’t wear his ring ANYWHERE. and deletes me as a friend on facebook and puts his status as single, and asks girls for their number if they say they want sex now. well, when what matters to you most in the world (and for me, mattering more than a car is HUGE) takes your heart and puts it on a pedestal, only to put it in a blender shortly after, your whole world crumbles down and you do get a little emotional. so, men, when you call us stupid all the fucking time, get over it. we have to deal with ignorant assholes who are equivalent to dogs–you guys have no thought process and when you feel the urge for sex, that overpowers any intelligent thought you may have. fuck all of you for laughing at women who have been treated like shit. i got on beautifulpeople.com. can you do that? yet every guy i have dated has cheated on me. because men can’t handle themselves. and they say women can’t run a country…haha. i won’t get started on that though.
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