I HATE MEN

My, my, my..where shall I begin on the infinite sadness this bastard has afflicted on me?

We started talking several months ago, decided to be friends and go from there. Initially, we spoke on the phone for hours and we were really really into each other. I couldn’t wait to meet him and he seemed to feel the same.

His owns his own business and was busy at the time. It was the end of his busy season and there were many loose ends to tie up. He kept saying we’d get together, asked what I wanted to do and plan. However, it kept getting pushed back further and further.

He constantly said how nice I was, sexy, loved talking to me, how intelligent I was and he felt he knew me. I was so enveloped by him that I ignored the classic signs of “he just wasn’t into me.”

I work with his nieces and unfortunately they got fired from the company. It was their own doing: surfing the Internet, leaving work too early. Nonetheless, they blamed me because I was on the management team and they thought I should have “stopped’ the terminations. I had no say or control over the decisions.

Thereafter, they tainted his mind with blantant lies about me. He stopped calling and I knew something happened but I didn’t know what. He blew me off and never gave the chance to find out why. In disgust, I called him and gave him a piece of my mind n his voicemail. He got the message and immediately called me to fight. We talked it out but he never trusted me fully again. He was also distant and cold. But, he still wanted to “converse” because I was a nice girl.

He went away for a few months and he kept saying that he’d love to take me out still. Like a dumbass, I kept hoping against hope he would. His calls were once a week or once every 3 weeks. I hung around like an idiot.

He finally returned to resume his work. He immediately called and wanted to know why he didn’t hear from me for awhile. He thought I was mad at him. I told him that I was backing off and not trying anymore. He had no reaction.

He did ask for my pic again and I mailed it. Do you know he never responded to it? He never acknowledged receipt or react to it? I mean, I am not a supermodel but at least I believe I am decent looking. This finally woke me up.

He did call again but I answered, said nothing and hung up. He hasn’t called since. Good riddence!

Thank you jerk for wasting my time. Thank you jerk for opening my eyes to the scum that still walks the earth. Thank you for disrespecting me, not considering my feelings, giving me false hope, telling me what I wanted to hear, deeming me a liar and not apologizing or giving me a chance to defend myself. Thank you for ruining my self esteem and having me question myself. Thank you for never taking me out.

Thank you for making me realize how desperate I came off, how I showed the world that I would stoop so low to accept this behavior from a male, how I cried over you and wondered what I went wrong, how I pondered why I wasn’t good enough. Thank you for showing me that I needed to have one last smack in the face to see you for the piece of garbage you are.

After all of this, I do not hate you, I ABHOR you! You were a waste now and always will be. Perhaps one day, you will leave Mommy’s house and realize that a 38 year old male needs his own space.