I’ve just had my heart smashed again. I’m mid-twenties, attractive, smart & educated, social, and I do attract men. Yet for the past four and a half years, every “relationship” has lasted either a night or a month or two.

Most recently, I started hanging out with this cool local bartender. Really fun, we hung out every night for the past week. Dinner, tv nights on the couch, parties… It was fun. Yes we slept together a few times and it was good. I even asked if he was just looking for friendship or if he liked me. He responded that it freaked him out when girls asked that, but that yes he liked me and I’m the only one he’s with right now.

And then last night, after an entire week of hanging out together, he ignored my text. I called a few hours later and was sent straight to voicemail. I fell apart. Today when he texted me (completely unrelated to my text last night), I said we should just be friends and he responded “that’s fine.” No protest. He could care less.

I can’t do this anymore. I want a partner – companionship, a lover, and eventually a family. But guys lose interest so fast, it’s hard to keep having hope. I just want to sell all my stuff and move to another country and live far away from anyone so I stop getting my hopes up for the life I really want.

What’s the alternative to having to keep putting yourself out there? To keep being embarrassed and eventually brushed aside once a guy loses interest?

This post was submitted by Janie.