Why me?

12:58 pm in I Hate Men by minjin

One month ago i met this Asian guy, you should know that I’m attracted much to Asian guys. Anyways i lost my virginity with him….we had sex many times, maybe too many times. Doing that often we didn’t do other things like a normal couple. Then the last time i was at his place, after i left something was strange…..he started to say that he didn’t have time, that he had to do something. Anyways after two weeks of me being depressed and crying…and trying to make him come on…he came because of my friend. And that was yesterday, he told me that he doesn’t love me and asked if we could stay just friends. I couldn’t accept that, since i think that after a month you cant love someone. Maybe be attracted but not love. Saying i love you to someone instantly and after such little time is a bit to much, teens do that often. I’m someone who has to build up her feelings for someone, and well i have some or else i wouldn’t cry for him.

After some while of him not accepting that i didn’t wanted to be just his friend. We agreed on continuing our relationship…to know each other better and not have sex. I don’t know how it will turn….i hope that feelings will build up…well i hope that in his case because he was the first one that wanted to meet me cause he thought i was interesting.

What do you think? Can i hope?